Sometimes I wish I could forget you.
Or rather, forget us. What we once were.
I’m completely over it. And I’m done with you.
I’ve gotten past all of it, and moved on.
I’ve taken you on as friend, and we chat from time to time.
I hold no grudges against you, or the things you’ve said.
And I hope you have forgiven me, too.
The thing is.. no matter how long it’s been, no matter how much has changed, no matter where we are now as people… Everytime I see you and another one, I wonder why it wasn’t me.
Not out of jealousy, but curiosity.
I wonder why I couldn’t hold us together.
You blamed yourself at times, but I’m not perfect, either.
So I try to think back to all our memories, and what might have gone wrong.
And then.. I just get angry. I’m not even really sure why.
Maybe it’s because I can’t figure out everything, as I’d like to.
But I hate the anger, it’s so… different. It’s like embedded in me.
And the fact that I hate it makes me more angry, and it’s just a pointless moment of rage that I can’t understand or do anything about.
So I wish I could forget us, and I wish we had always stayed friends.
I wish I never had to question why I have such negative emotions over such irrelevant thoughts.
I almost wish we never were, but some of the memories are too good to forget.
Then I wonder, why?
Why does it even matter?
And it doesn’t.
Memories are a luxury, even the bad ones.
But that doesn’t mean I need to let them make me lose sight of the present.
So now I let it all go. All the anger, all the memories.
April 24th, 2012 // 23 notes
I Found a Whistle
“This was the song that had the most questions, no one knew what it was really about. In an interview, Andrew had said that it was actually a song about love between two people.
I didn’t really get how at first, but the more I listen to the song, the more I understand. I know there’s someone in my life that’s similar to that whistle.
Someone that feels right.
And even at the worst of times, they can really make it all seem to go away.
They perfectly close my mind from the world, every time.”
March 28th, 2012 // 6 notes
Anonymous asked: Does anyone even listen to those bands? Like I kmow people listen tp Avenged Sevenfold, buti've never met anyone who like Mgmt or Hellogoodbye just saying. Are you like the only one? jkjkjk but ya
Well, a lot of people aren’t really aware of Hellogoodbye’s new music, but I personally know quite a few people that listen to them.
Or at least their newer stuff.
And I know a LOT of people that listen to MGMT, so. xD
But those were just who I generally listen to right now, my music library is generally nothing but ‘main stream’ stuff. Then again idek what the hell ‘main stream’ is anymore.
But unless you’ve been heavily sheltered or living underground your entire life, you’ll probably recognize just about every single artist in my music library.
March 20th, 2012 // 0 notes
Anonymous asked: What's your favorite band or bands?
Welllllll, my music taste is pretty main stream to be honest.
But I love:
Panic! At The Disco
And, that’s really all I listen to right now.
But I’m trying to find more things to listen to, so feel free to come off anon and have a super dope music conversation with me. :B
March 20th, 2012 // 1 note